HEARTBROKEN

by Robin

I wish somebody had warned me about how to guard your heart when your child is dating.  Nobody told me that I'd be waking up with eyes puffy from the tears and searching for chocolate for breakfast.  I feel completely drained.  Every song on the Christian radio station seems to be about letting go and depending on God.  God blessing the broken road that leads straight to Him.  And before I got out of the car, Laura Story's song The Blessing came on.  I cried through that.

We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough

God even spoke through His Word this morning in my quiet Bible study time.  A fig tree did not bear fruit and God said to leave it alone.  The next day, it wilted.  I kept thinking back about how they met and it was such a God thing and both of them continued to put God first in their relationship.

And then, Laura's final lyrics:

What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

Oh poop.  They were such a lovely couple in so many ways.  I never have seen him happier.  And she was a ray of sunshine, always happy and wise beyond her years.  I admire her.  And I will pray for her.  I don't think she wanted to break up but she was doing it out of obedience to answered pray.  God spoke and she was not happy about it any more than I am.

I wonder if her eyes are as puffy as mine and if she's reaching for chocolate too.